Light and Dark

Stepped out of the office and saw the moon still so visible and full. 😍

Good morning/night!

When you try and succeed to stay strong longer than you know you can, you’ll just find yourself breaking down at a random time and day.

Birthday

Walking along the busy city streets tonight, I realized this is the first time I’m not looking forward to my birthday, which is tomorrow. I’m not feeling any excitement, fear, worry.. good nor bad.. nothing. I have even just accepted that this may come with age. Adults may be feeling this way all the time. Then it hurt me again to realize it may be because there’s nothing special happening in my life right now. I don’t even want to just pray for my current obstacle, the family being financially in a bad state. I usually wish to have something I’m yearning for on my next birthday or wish to have passed and be laughing at a present problem a year later or show extreme gratitude for the things I have now and am experiencing now. However, tonight.. This year..

Nothing. Blank. Empty.

Until a few more minutes of contemplating, watching the seemingly lonely, damp roads be lit by passing cars, it struck me. I needn’t have a special reason to be happy about it nor have to always look forward to it. Simply, the gift of life.. Me being here right now.. Me having lived 22 years.. And still having the opportunity to continue.. It’s more than enough reason to celebrate tomorrow.

Happy 23rd birthday, self!

Cheers to life!

She’s hurting while she’s praying

It’s painful but still hopeful

That one day, she’ll find a way

I’m just grateful for tints, blushes, and lipsticks that help conceal dull, sick, lonely faces of girls who are either ill or having a bad day.

‪I love long walks in the busy city streets early in the morning. But sometimes I wish there’d be anyone who will walk in front of me and assure me reality’s better than the world inside my head.

‪Each day that passes by without doing what you want to and can do is forever gone. Let that sink in.‬