Grudges

I used to hold grudges on people (dear friends and special ones) who either agree to meeting up then cancelling last minute, especially those who don’t give any notice that they wouldn’t make it, or don’t respond to any of my messages and keep me on “seen.”

These people, unfortunately, are those whom I rarely see or talk or whom I had to gather enough courage first before speaking to or asking out; which was why I tend to hurt so much then.

But I have learnt to shrug it off (that I’m very glad to) sometime this year; when and how are vague.

What I do is I keep in mind that I don’t know if they may be going through / have been through something. If I do know, still, I don’t know what exactly they were feeling or how devastating it must have been for them.

I try to understand.

I try to.. Though I don’t understand a thing, though I’m hurting, though I feel disappointed, though my expectations and excitement are really at the peak.

We all cope differently.

During those times, we also sometimes hurt others or push them away unbeknownst to us.

I just repeat those thoughts over and over until I’m calm.

I hope they know that I’ll still be here, fast forward everything.

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3 Idiots

Two years ago, the first and best Bollywood movie was introduced to our class by our Com Skills 12 professor. Here is the film review that I submitted a day after.

Ma. Hyacinth C. Estidola                March 5, 2013
BS PSY 1B                Com Skills 12

3 Idiots

This is the most illuminating and most inspiring movie I’ve seen so far. Impossible as it may seem, it contains lessons concerning almost every facet of life. It began with the matter of indecent execution of power. Students in higher levels make freshmen do ridiculous actions on their first night in school as a form of showing respect to them; Professor Viru gives wrongful charges along with calling or writing to the parents of students whose attitude he does not like. Maddening, it is. But sadly, most could not do anything other than following and accepting. Another is regarding the former matter’s most terrible result: students commit suicide. The movie had made it clear that the most common cause of that act is blurred thoughts due to mounting problems they’re suffering from, be it the heartless professors or their families’ expectations.

Writing on this sheet of paper would be inadequate if I will enumerate every moral I learnt from this film. However, if I am to be asked what the best subject was, my answer would definitely be about making decisions which will lead to the pursuit of our own dreams. We should not live out others’ aspirations. Strive to be the best because you want to become the best, not because other people want you to.

“You don’t have to chase success. Achieve excellence and let success chase you.”

was one of the motivating lines of the main protagonist. Regrets are always the last thing you will realize. Listen to what your heart is telling you. Follow where your feet are taking you. Think about your passion. Improve it; Become the best out of it. In the end, it will and always be yourself who will be the happiest. Remember: What you sow, you shall reap.