Tomorrow, I’m letting you go.

Tomorrow, I’m letting you go.

I know I’ve said it a thousand times.

But this very night, I feel the need. 


Tonight, we were together.

Different, everything felt. 


The song I haven’t heard in years. 

It played as if on cue when I arrived.

There, with you, I felt every line.


I have already lost you long ago. 

After all the heartaches, the waiting.

Who was I to hope we could still be?


I almost had you many times. 

Many times I missed the chance. 

Tonight I felt you’re really over me.

Tomorrow, I’m letting go for real. 

Gallery

Wall of Memories

The latter I put in frames and hung on the walls.

Here are some of the frames’ contents:

*in no particular order

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Oh, I forgot her name. Little girl I played with whilst at Jazz’s house.

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Santacruzan. First (and hopefully the last) time to join.

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Received consecutive gift certificates on the year’s second half. Blessings poured in rectangular form.

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My former roommates gave me this. Ate Karen stressed the importance of time during her speech.

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Everyone’s aware that I love giving letters to people, yet oblivious of the fact that I love receiving, too. Luckily, Sahlee realized it and made me this.

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Sick of being four-eyed and looking like a nerd. Grey-eyed Athena for a change.

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Letters given to me and slipped inside my small envelope during the Youth Camp.

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Guest list, cards, letters, tags.. name it.

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Cute eye mask. A Christmas present from our thoughtful roommate.

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Last visit to the dentist and first attempt to take covert selfies.

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With Aida and Camille, sweet orphans at Gabay Foundation, Angono, Rizal.

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Elmeritzzy twins, our cuddle buddies. Gone is my mannerism ever since Vian gave her to me.

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Dancing lights at Ayala Triangle. Eyes sparkled and ears flapped.. again.

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Two different colors. Two different symbols. Two different stories.

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First book I actually had. I love to read but I never got the chance to have my own. Couldn’t be less grateful.

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Too much pressure on my part. Did everyone who had this all became pros?

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Student Catholic Action’s blue day. Le pictorial.

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Japan Japan. Kawaii. World peace, yo.

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Went to Manila Boys Town for NSTP. First roadtrip with 2B.

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“Finishing her requirements with style” was the caption my friend placed on his twitter account.

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First debut I attended. Well, technically, second. So, first to attend looking presentable. That’s more factual.

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Seven years after. Cool, right? This deserves a major throwback award.

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A sister who graduated on the left and a proud ate on the right.

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Four girls. One room. Twelve months. A bond nothing can ever cut.

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School orgs I’m currently into. Hard to balance yet fun-filled.

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The best people in college. Need I say more?

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THE blue Samsung Galaxy Core. Bragging aside, I consider it my best phone. Received as a reward for good grades. Gave away a day after my birthday.

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A frustration my sister gratified.

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Mouth zipped. Tongue tied.

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Lumino shirt. Glows in the dark. YFC’s Regional Conference a.k.a. StarCon. Star stands for Southern TAgalog Region, which will forever be the best acronym I ever knew.

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Selfies on Christmas eve. Photobombed by my dearest sib.

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She’s not drunk, just tired of my very humorous jokes.. or my mere existence? Kidding. Ever comfy at Vian’s house. Doodle here and there.

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Twins + twins + twins. Is that even possible in the real world?

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My babies! Kids Camp at Risen Christ Church.

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Interviewed an employee for compliance’s sake, but enjoyed the rewards.

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The day I wrote my name on the paper that signifies my willingness to become a Youth For Christ.

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With my partner (also our term of endearment), MCs for the Peer Facilitators’ Phases 1 & 2 Training in Antipolo.

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PE 12 Culminating Activity. Move your body, move your body~

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Two surprises in one day. I think I’ve opened my eyes real wide and have said “awww” a few times more than the average.

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PE 13 C.A. *Insert attacking scene from the movie “300”*

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One of the best outfits I have worn photos taken wearing nice outfits.

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KTV. All expenses paid by the birthday girl, Pau. Great night. So looking forward for another song book to hold.

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I didn’t remember this happened until I saw this picture. Nope! I didn’t do that! Only guilty for taking this photo. Won’t drop names for their friendship’s sake.

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Moonlight Serenade. A night where purple was proven to be the best color.

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JS Prom on Valentines’ Day. Period.

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Message in a medicine capsule. Given to some of my closest friends from my sister’s batch on the day of their graduation.

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Surprise! For my sister this time. Met her college friends, too.

Last glance

2013..

An untidy room filled with bliss, tears, laughter, anger, motivation, confusion, highs, sighs, smiles, byes. As I looked around, I felt the weight on my shoulders again. A lot of crazy things happened in the past twelve months. Honestly, need not use a balance beam, negative events > positive events. Problems kept knocking this year, often not alone, making every waking hour accompanied by a deep sigh.

I’ve thought of recalling every bad memory I could, but decided not to just a few seconds after. Why look back? Yes, those events made me stronger and wiser; but contemplating on those will only bring back the negativities. Instead, I put them all in a box, apart from the lessons I must remember and the good ones that made me feel alive again, and placed it in the attic. The latter I put in frames and hung on the wall.

Done! The room looks better and gives off a lighter feeling now. It’s time to leave this place and enter a new one. Tomorrow is another 365 days. Again, I will laugh, cry, sing, break my heart, mend it, learn. I took baby steps towards the door, preparing myself to leave the past behind. As I walked out and held the knob, I turned around and gave it one last glance, smiled and slowly shut the door.