Maybe not

Maybe one day, all these thoughts will be reality. Maybe not with the person I’m imagining at present, but surely with the right person.

This in itself soothes me.

I just really can’t control my mind. Us getting another chance in this lifetime is next to impossible anymore, but I can’t stop myself. I keep on creating happy memories I know might never happen.

And that’s okay. I’ll hold on to the thought that it might not.. not with him.. But with the person written in God’s plans, it surely will.

I think I can settle on this for now.

The child in me got the better of me a while ago. Washing my hands, I started blowing to form a bubble. I was so amazed as it slowly grew bigger. Snapped back when it popped and laughed at what I just did.

Not New Year’s Resolutions, just new day realizations

  • Less complaints, more actions
  • Situations I can’t control, I’ll let be.
  • If there are work left unfinished past 8PM, then there are. (Discipline on both work-life balance and efficiency)
  • Tweet about negative thoughts and feelings less. It only lets the emotions linger and gives others a peek.
  • Two watches, cellphone, laptop.. Be mindful of the time.
  • Sleep longer, live longer
  • Big or small, give Him thanks

Fix

Maybe steering away, for now, is the best thing to do. Fix myself first or I drag them down with me. Never will I let the latter happen. Happy New Year to the people I care about. I’ll be cheering from the sides.

I wasn’t drunk; I was myself that night.

I realized this just now. That night, and probably on other days, I did and said all those things not because I was drunk. I was just my complete self. I may not know why exactly, but in nights like that, I’m myself. It may be because I’m extremely comfortable with the people I’m with or because the people around me are drunk anyways and may forget everything the following day. Whatever the reason, I’m just glad I’m able to put down my mask from time to time.