“You f*cking ain’t leaving me.” -Sarge

“Dad, look at me! Save her!” -Trent

“40 years ago, you bombed us. We survived the American apocalypse. We’ll survive this one, too.” -Sua

-Sarge, Trent, Sua; Beyond Skyline

Irreplaceable You

This isn’t a movie review.

I paused it and am writing this while crying. It’s because of this movie that I finally am honest to myself on how lonely I am.

I am lonely.

I still don’t have anyone. 23 years (24 in a month) and I still don’t.

I know no one should make anyone a solution to their sadness.. or problems.. or feeling of incompleteness, but I really feel sad and incomplete.

I am okay. My life’s okay. There’s these bumps every now and then, but I am okay with my life, my family, my friends, myself. I like how everything is. I love it. I’m happy.

It’s just that there’s something missing. There’s this hole inside. I feel empty. Not that I don’t feel loved; in fact I am, very. It’s just different when you have someone. As I always say and know:

I’m ready.

I may be a little bruised now. I might seem to be yearning for somebody to complete me or fix me or turn as my world. No, all I want is to have someone I can shower all my love on and be showered on all his, someone I’d brave any storm with.

But where are you?

“This is a wishing machine. You tell it your wishes and it keeps them safe… even if you forget them.” -Phineas/P.T. Barnum

“You need something alive.” -Caroline Barnum

“They don’t understand, but they will.” -Phineas

“You don’t know it yet, but they are gonna love you.” -Phineas

“This is the life I promised you.” -Phineas

“You don’t need everyone to love you, Phin; just a few, good people.” -Charity Barnum

“…making them equals. Another critic might have called it presentation of humanity.” -James Gordon

“Our own mothers were ashamed of us, hid us, but you pulled us out…” -Lettie Lutz

“All that’s left is friendship, love, and work that I adore.” -Phillip Carlyle

“What will you be doing?” -Carlyle
“Watching my girls grow up.” -Phineas

“The noblest art is that of making others happy.” -Real P.T. Barnum

-Phineas/P.T. Barnum, Caroline Barnum, Charity Barnum, James Gordon, Lettie Lutz, Phillip Carlyle; The Greatest Showman

The eagle has landed

The film, Eddie The Eagle, has just moved from my list of “To Watch” to my list of “All-Time Favorites”. I have also just recommended it to all my Twitter, Instagram, and Facebook connections.

I’m on a high right now. I’m listing down all the words I can associate to this movie, this life story:

Dedication. Passion. Failure. Determination. Rejection. Inspiration. Trust. Courage. Heart. Ambition. Training. Dream. Positivity. Negativity. Hope. Struggle. Pain. Recognition. Effort. Discipline. Readiness. Spirit. Motivation. Experience. Preparation. Encouragement. Understanding. Belief.

No further explanations. That’s it; that’s the review.