“To understand, go backwards. To live, move forward.” -Mass Presider
Pushed you so far away I can’t pull you back now.
Tomorrow, I’m letting you go.
I know I’ve said it a thousand times.
But this very night, I feel the need.
Tonight, we were together.
Different, everything felt.
The song I haven’t heard in years.
It played as if on cue when I arrived.
There, with you, I felt every line.
I have already lost you long ago.
After all the heartaches, the waiting.
Who was I to hope we could still be?
I almost had you many times.
Many times I missed the chance.
Tonight I felt you’re really over me.
Tomorrow, I’m letting go for real.
One thing that both Agents of Shield and The Flash taught me is that I should stop living in the past. Everything that has happened before seems a lifetime away from me now. I can never take back anything I’ve said and done, especially those I haven’t.
Just wondering what the present would be like had I answered that one question from months ago.
“Minahal mo ba ako?”
I must stop looking at the rearview mirror and just focus on the driveway.
Do you know what kills me? It’s the fact that you’ve totally moved on while I haven’t yet. It’s that to you this was all just a casual conversation, but to me it seemed as if a reconciliation.
Soon, I will heal. For now, all I have to do is prepare to see you in tomorrow’s event, after months of distance and no communication, prepare to act all casual and conceal what my eyes truly say. I hope tonight’s sleep can take away these feelings. I want it to. Good night, dear.