I was so right when I said I will miss my guy friend when he already finds a special someone.
Maybe one day, all these thoughts will be reality. Maybe not with the person I’m imagining at present, but surely with the right person.
This in itself soothes me.
I just really can’t control my mind. Us getting another chance in this lifetime is next to impossible anymore, but I can’t stop myself. I keep on creating happy memories I know might never happen.
And that’s okay. I’ll hold on to the thought that it might not.. not with him.. But with the person written in God’s plans, it surely will.
I think I can settle on this for now.
Truly, no matter how long and how much you prepare for people who are leaving, the pain’s still the same.
Took a nap just a while ago.
Dreamt of me hearing my father flirting on the phone. I stormed outside my room towards him in the living room. He didn’t notice me as his eyes were closed and was wearing earphones. I was enraged, more so because the setting was similar to the actual before I fell asleep — my mother and youngest sister asleep on the couches — yet he seemed confident he won’t wake them up and kept on talking. Though I already knew who it was on the other end, I grabbed his phone to look at the caller ID. It was a bit hard since along with the shock, his reflexes made him hold on to his phone.
No, please don’t let it be a warning, Lord. I don’t want it to happen to us.. again. I don’t want to go through it alone again. I don’t want to hold more grudges against him. I don’t want to forgive him again. Please.
When someone said s/he would like to travel back in time, not to change things, but to feel a few things twice.
darn, I felt that.
There are photos that make you smile and think, “This happened? ☺️ At least this happened”
“Everybody is just winging it. There’s no perfect recipe to success.”
Dang, Monday morning and these dj’s have very accurate life lessons.
story of my life
Masks back on, heroes.
Once they get to know the real, messed up you, their hands are up.