This friendship’s making me realize how killjoy I am most times and how much better it is to just live, say yes, take risks, be happy.

Me First

I think I now know how I’d start my 2018 right.

  • Take risks
  • Be honest
  • Live in the moment
  • Say yes
  • Be happy
  • Love freely
  • Take chances
  • Open up
  • Be brave
  • Have fun
  • Give time
  • Be me
  • Decide for me

‪Each day that passes by without doing what you want to and can do is forever gone. Let that sink in.‬

What I learnt from the film, Begin Again:

Not everybody who wants.. deserves a chance. Not everybody who deserves.. is given a chance.

Have a little faith

No matter how bad your day goes, there’s always someone up there who wouldn’t let it end that way. You just have to take the time to notice the little things.

So far, it has been a struggle to wake up each day and get to work. I have a problem with my status, my workload, my worth, my rights. I’m losing all the motivation to do my responsibilities. I won’t get into details but it’s really a mess right now. And just lately, I’ve convinced myself (with the help of my beloved coworkers) to finally do something about it.. and not just anything, but the biggest risk one could do. I’ve set my plans, but I’m still having difficulties executing them, let alone the fact that aside from my colleagues, none of my friends and family have any idea about what I’m going through. I’m also trying really hard to distract myself from other problems I concurrently have.

There I was, getting out of the building from working late, dreading the thought of going home and not getting a good sleep from worrying and getting up again to face life. I saw the buses filled with people standing and sighed. My mood and the condition of my ride home is just a good combo, isn’t it? Then, as I read the sign from the coming bus I was about to ride, I was surprised it was the one that could take me home easily! Buses like this one never (in my whole experience) come this way! It was such a blessing. I kept sighing in relief as I boarded and comfortably sat.

So I thought He was done surprising me. I read today’s teaching from The Daily Bread and it just strike me right through the chest. He wanted me to surrender all plans I have to him, reminded that He is beside me through it all. It even has the scripture that I have a copy here on my phone as a wallpaper that I use each time I needed it.

“God is within her, she will not fall.” Psalms 46:5

Minutes later, as I was writing down my reflections for today’s reading, the song Heavy played on the bus. This is the one song that really gets to me especially in times that everything feels heavy. I let out a deep sigh. The song was followed by Superhero, one of my all-time motivating songs. I mouthed a “thank You” as I began to realize the consecutive ways He’s been letting me aware of his presence. No matter how hard these days are to me right now, I’m never alone in this fight. So are you.

3 Idiots

Two years ago, the first and best Bollywood movie was introduced to our class by our Com Skills 12 professor. Here is the film review that I submitted a day after.

Ma. Hyacinth C. Estidola                March 5, 2013
BS PSY 1B                Com Skills 12

3 Idiots

This is the most illuminating and most inspiring movie I’ve seen so far. Impossible as it may seem, it contains lessons concerning almost every facet of life. It began with the matter of indecent execution of power. Students in higher levels make freshmen do ridiculous actions on their first night in school as a form of showing respect to them; Professor Viru gives wrongful charges along with calling or writing to the parents of students whose attitude he does not like. Maddening, it is. But sadly, most could not do anything other than following and accepting. Another is regarding the former matter’s most terrible result: students commit suicide. The movie had made it clear that the most common cause of that act is blurred thoughts due to mounting problems they’re suffering from, be it the heartless professors or their families’ expectations.

Writing on this sheet of paper would be inadequate if I will enumerate every moral I learnt from this film. However, if I am to be asked what the best subject was, my answer would definitely be about making decisions which will lead to the pursuit of our own dreams. We should not live out others’ aspirations. Strive to be the best because you want to become the best, not because other people want you to.

“You don’t have to chase success. Achieve excellence and let success chase you.”

was one of the motivating lines of the main protagonist. Regrets are always the last thing you will realize. Listen to what your heart is telling you. Follow where your feet are taking you. Think about your passion. Improve it; Become the best out of it. In the end, it will and always be yourself who will be the happiest. Remember: What you sow, you shall reap.

Everyone needs somebody.

No circumstance is ever unbearable if you have someone beside or behind you, whether family, friend, or a special person.

Most important lesson I learned from watching The Heirs.

The Giver

In our Cognitive Psychology subject, we were asked to choose a movie character that we can relate to what we’ve discussed in the whole semester. The Giver was what I picked.

Jonas of The Giver was the character I chose. He lived in a Community where memory was erased and controlled by The Elders. Residents were deprived of their fluid ability. They were like robots who were taught what to do and what not to, obeying every rule without even understanding why, thus lacking metacognition. The Elders were to decide which family unit to place newborns, what career to assign 12 year-olds, whom to marry, everything. Their actions were entirely automatically processed. They were taught to embrace “sameness”; they perceived things and situations using object-centered representation. They didn’t experience suffering, hunger, war, and didn’t have color, music, and love.

These were all because of The Elders’ strong dissension toward people’s wrongful choices and doings when they have their freedom.

“When people have the freedom to choose, they choose wrong.. every single time,”

the Chief Elder said. The Elders have had such trauma that they aimed to instill retrograde amnesia on the next generations and controlled the way they think, feel, and do to refrain them from repeating the unwanted.

Then came Jonas, who was chosen to be the Receiver of Memory during the Ceremony of Twelve. It was where children of the right ages were to graduate from childhood and be assigned certain careers. He met the present Receiver who has now become The Giver. He gave all his attention to everything he taught him. He was alert at all times. He was able to orient every stimuli introduced to him, no matter how exciting or painful it got. He attained executive attention. He was especially attentive when introduced to a sled. He seemed to know how to use it and feel the thrill of riding it down a snowy hill, which are called procedural memory.

They later devised a plan to bring back the memories of the residents. They felt that it was time for change. But, the only way to do so was for Jason to leave the Community. The actual plan did not work but the goal they did achieve.


This was the psychoanalysis I submitted in one of my major subjects last semester. Alibugha (Prodigal) was a stage play performed by the Dramatic Guild of our university, along with other organizations in the same field.

Ma. Hyacinth C. Estidola            December 16, 2014
BS PSY 3B          Expe Psy

Psychoanalysis of Behavior

Generally, personality refers to the pattern of relatively permanent traits and unique characteristics that give both consistency and individuality to a person’s behavior (Roberts & Mroczek, 2008). Culture, on the other hand, pertains to the enduring behaviors, ideas, attitudes, and traditions shared by a large group of people and transmitted from one generation to the next (Myers, 2013).

An individual’s personality can be affected by his cultural experiences, and it was manifested in the protagonist’s role. Eddie’s independent self was immediately shown when he asked for his inheritance from his father. He had his own goals and dreams, those that are different from the townspeople. He felt uncomfortable appearing exactly like everyone else, to be a farmer specifically. He asserted his uniqueness by not conforming to their simple lives. He had imagined his possible selves, dreamt of being a successful man in the urban areas and coming home to hear his father and brother thanking him for the prosperity they have. And so he left his father’s farm to seek his fortune in the city.

All the behaviors Eddie presented were results of internal locus of control and of teleology. He believed he can and will be able to control his own destiny. He did what he thought was right for him even when everybody told him he would be wrong. He was young, alike a morning sun. All he wanted was to leave and reach for his dreams, oblivious to the asperity of the life he sought for.