Time to start planning my life. Time to stop aimlessly getting by each day.
I’ll make sure it’s worth the long wait.
I’ll make sure it’s worth the chances I didn’t take.
I’ll make sure it’s worth the people I had to hurt.
I’ll make sure it’s worth the people I couldn’t fight for.
This time, I’ll make sure of it.
It’s a little bit exhausting. Life’s exhausting. Where are you now? When will you come and get through this tiresome life with me?
I get why I feel like days fly by so fast, now.
I’m doing nothing.
The weeks are passing by the same ways. It’s always the same things. There’s nothing new, nothing special, nothing’s changed.
That’s what I should vow to myself to start doing now. Each week, there should be at least one thing I accomplished, began, or changed. I will jot it down weekly and post it here exactly one year later. I know this initiative will greatly impact who and where I will be by that time.
It’s just up to me to start.
Hearing, “Ate, gusto ko magmed,” (Translation: Sister, I want to study medicine) this morning just instantly shifted my life’s direction.
It’s a dream I’ve never let go; just put on hold. Now, it’s my sister’s dream, too. I’m so glad I have a set timeline for that dream of mine (plan B and plan C I’ve well thought of for a long time). I’m also glad she knows what she wants now (at the age of 13).
But it’s confusing me because hearing those words both set my plans straight-er and at the same time collapsed mine. Confusing, right? Hahaha.
Now, I can’t help thinking if it’s something I should add to the drawing or if I should throw away the first and draw on a new, blank page.